Re: Childhood trauma in natal chart?
Hello ZoraEos - thank you!
Here is equal house chart, would be really helpful to hear what you think, especially since you have so much in common
Hi! Thank you for posting the chart! Sorry for how long it has taken me to respond, had a very busy week. Here goes:
Sun. opposite Moon. - Conflict between head and heart. Temperamental, sensitive. Fluxes in energy and moods (one week productive, the next not.) The mother (moon) and father (sun) were very opposite in nature. I have found this to be very true in my case - My father (with the alcohol problem) was very loud, outgoing, dominant while my mother (codependent) was very timid and passive. The parents' marriage may look generally okay on the outside, but isn't. Increased pessimism towards relationships (possibly due to observing abusive dynamic between parents), expecting relationships to fail, for example (which closes a person off to intimacy more, makes them afraid of being abused or being the abuser).
Moon. opposite Merc. - Also an aspect that leads to increased conflict between head and heart. Also temperamental, sensitive, and increases fluxes. Restlessness may lead to a very driven personality. You can usually tell which mood they're in by how much they talk or not (Very true in my case). Increased creativity. May increase risk for self-medication and addictions.
Sun. conjunct Merc. - Energetic mind. Potentially increased expressiveness (or simultaneously troubles with expression if combust Merc.)
Cancer rising - Very creative, sensitive. Possibly moody. Affected by the environment easily, making it very important to be in good environments to avoid picking up bad habits and moods/mindsets from others (For example, will definitely want to avoid vice-ful places and friends that drink, smoke, or have other habits - more susceptible to picking poor habits and moods/mindsets up from them). Also, he is 0 degrees Cancer rising, making it Cancer rising in its purest form and dominated by the moon. This leads to even more changeability. Rollercoaster life, rollercoaster moods.
+ Pisces sun, and so much water in the chart. Overall, he seems to have the quintessential artist's temperament - It seems very likely that you are dealing with a brooding artist.
Now, trauma...
Chiron in Cancer and 1st House - As previous posts have said, this is a high indicator of childhood trauma. Cancer is home, nurturance, early childhood, and 1st house is identity, self, body. Therefore, it is likely that there is a wound to his identity and self, and that it is of a highly emotional nature and related to his childhood and home growing up. Since 1st house also symbolizes the body, it is possible that it was physical abuse. However, neither Mars and Saturn are making any negative or harsh aspects in the chart or to Chiron or the 1st house. It seems to be mostly the Moon and Mercury involved (Mercury ruling the Virgo moon). Therefore, I think that it is less likely to be physical abuse and more of emotional/verbal abuse in the home (However, I could be wrong, so take that carefully).
4th House Ruler in 8th - I also have this placement. 4th house (house of nurturance, childhood) being ruled by 8th house (sudden events, emotionally intense and transformative experiences) is also a high indicator of traumatic events and instability in the home. Even more, the 8th house is in Aquarius (very up and down sign, aloof) and 4th house in Libra (also up and down, unstable), could mean that home was a very unstable and unpredictable environment, and possibly neglectful. It could have been very messy and disorganized, very chaotic emotionally, etc. Therefore, there may not have been just one traumatic event that happened, or single specific traumatic events that happened - Rather, there may have been multiple events, continuous events, subtle events - Trauma that is harder to pinpoint. There may have been a chronic state of chaos of some sort. This supports the possibility of significant emotional and verbal abuse, as it is harder to pinpoint and recognize since it happens more subtly and chronically. There may have been significant neglect, maybe even physical (due to 1st house Chiron). Such chronic and somewhat subtle abuse could be why he has such a hard time talking about it or confronting his emotions, because it's hard to pinpoint, and there may be a lot of guilt and shame involved, being a major block to confronting emotions and intimacy. He may not even remember specific events, but remember the feeling. He may struggle with emotional dysregulations, low self-esteem, and intimacy problems, without knowing exactly why or how to confront it, leading to an unwillingness to talk about it, because he's not sure what to talk about or where to begin. Also, it is his Venus in 8th house that is being affected here, so it could be interpreted as his 4th house (childhood, emotions) affecting his Venus (relationships) in the 8th house (also house of intimacy).
Saturn in 7th house - Where Saturn is placed, there are delays. 7th house is the house of relationships and marriage, so there may be delays in those areas. However, Saturn is in Capricorn (exalted), so it should not be so bad after some effort.
I hope this was helpful! Let me know if you have any questions about anything! Also, I am a beginner at reading charts (and may have my own personal biases due to my background of having an alcoholic father), so take a lot of this carefully (and perhaps with a grain of salt). All the best!