Doom & Gloom

[leomoon]

This tunnel mentioned above, is very intriguing - I never cared much for Hawass (neither do many Egyptians who work for him ) but he won't retire of course. He said "It's unlikely they are buried there because Egyptians used Temples for worship not burials", but the Ptolemys were Greek and Antony - Roman. She only part Egyptian.

They could be here or in the Sea (due to the earthquakes) (see photos):

Archaeologists Seeking Cleopatra's Tomb Uncovered a "Geometric Miracle" Tunnel

Underneath a temple in the ancient ruined city of Taposiris Magna on the Egyptian coast, archaeologists discovered a vast, spectacular tunnel in 2022, a tunnel that experts called a "geometric miracle".

www.sciencealert.com

Burial shafts containing Greco-Roman burials have also been found in the temple. It's possible that – if they're to be found there at all – Cleopatra and her husband Mark Antony may have been interred in similar tombs.

Researchers weren't sure if the tunnel could lead to these long-lost tombs, but future work could yield more information.

The next stage will be exploring the nearby Mediterranean Sea. Between 320 and 1303 CE, a series of earthquakes hit the coast, causing part of the temple to collapse and be swallowed by the waves. In addition, excavations had previously revealed a network of tunnels stretching from Lake Mariout to the Mediterranean.

 

[leomoon]

Two mummies found in that site (Taposiris Magna) of high society probably known to Cleopatra to be buried there they say. Clad in gold leaf originally only done to those in higher tiers of society: The Mummies themselves are in poor shape however
(so we see how much Z. Hawass really knows after all! There were Egyptians buried there.....)

Cleopatra’s final resting place: Mummies of two high-status Egyptians discovered.

The mystery behind Egyptian queen Cleopatra’s tomb is immense because nobody appears to know where she was buried. However, archaeologists in Egypt are in all probability, close to cracking the code with respect to Cleopatra’s burial after two mummies of high-status individuals, who lived in her...

ancient-archaeology.com

Over 200 coins with Cleopatra's likeness found in the tunnel. This “incredible find” not only links Cleopatra directly to Taposiris Magna but also reveals a striking image of the queen, Godenho says in the documentary.


While its prominent nose and double chin may not suggest the classical beauty immortalised by Hollywood and Elizabeth Taylor, it is how she would have wanted to be seen as the coins would have been pressed using her direct instructions.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

Two mummies found in that site (Taposiris Magna) of high society probably known to Cleopatra to be buried there they say. Clad in gold leaf originally only done to those in higher tiers of society: The Mummies themselves are in poor shape however
(so we see how much Z. Hawass really knows after all! There were Egyptians buried there.....)

Cleopatra’s final resting place: Mummies of two high-status Egyptians discovered.

The mystery behind Egyptian queen Cleopatra’s tomb is immense because nobody appears to know where she was buried. However, archaeologists in Egypt are in all probability, close to cracking the code with respect to Cleopatra’s burial after two mummies of high-status individuals, who lived in her...

ancient-archaeology.com

Over 200 coins with Cleopatra's likeness found in the tunnel. This “incredible find” not only links Cleopatra directly to Taposiris Magna but also reveals a striking image of the queen, Godenho says in the documentary.


While its prominent nose and double chin may not suggest the classical beauty immortalised by Hollywood and Elizabeth Taylor, it is how she would have wanted to be seen as the coins would have been pressed using her direct instructions.

Hey!

Late reply due to lack of sleep. However, last night, I did read a few articles about the historical Cleopatra and reasons for her physical appearance etc.

So, the slanted forehead and pointed chin was a distinguishing mark of the Ptolemaic family, namely Cleopatra’s Father. So, even if she did have the same features herself, it is likely the features were exaggerated to pronounce the Ptolemaic likeness and therefore the authenticity to the throne etc.

Going back to comparing the similarities between Elizabeth Taylor and the real-life Cleopatra for a sec - they have a few things in common, I could go into details about the similarity in live-life between Marc Antony and Richard Burton, but just to get right to the crux quickly, the key word is - they both had POWER.

Elizabeth Taylor’s life path was 8 = Power. Beauty was just one part of the equation that adds to the overall potency of that. Fame, wealth, a lively sexuality, we’re other factors, which just all equate to the key word of having power.

I’m guessing Cleopatra didn’t need physical beauty as much as Elizabeth Taylor needed it to be fine powerful - she would not have been able to be a movie siren without beauty, for instance. But Cleopatra had the Ptolemaic dynasty, to give her power, which would have the same effect as ET being part of the Hollywood dynasty.

So it does not matter how beautiful Cleopatra was in today’s standards. In Ptolemaic Egypt, if she looked like a Ptolemy, she would be the equivalent of a great beauty today because of the power it would yield.

—coins depicting Cleopatra




Something else interesting I read about Cleopatra was that she had the reputed of a scholar, just not within the Roman Empire!

Octavian made sure to spin a propaganda wheel that Cleopatra was an indulgent, promiscuous femme fatale, that had lured Marc Antony into betraying Rome, so that this would justify the civil war Octavian needed to make a bid for Egypt.

In France and other places though (can’t remember specifics), Cleopatra had the reputation of a Scholar!

Much of her scientific work was about herbalism, so medicinal uses but also cosmetic used, like a remedy for baldness etc etc. She actually had a pretty respectable reputation for being a scientist. Alas, most of her work was sadly destroyed when the Great Library of Alexandria was burnt down.

Anyway, I imagine Cleopatra took a ‘scientific’ approach to section as well - I’m sure she had a reputation for going topless in order to seduce men, she would have used beauty to further her political ambitions.

Not unlike a savvy actress would to manipulate the press to her advantage I suppose but still, Cleopatra was an intellectual before a man decided to spin a vicious tale (oldest misogynistic trick in the book, eh!).

Cleopatra: What Is The Real Legacy Of The Last Pharaoh? | HistoryExtra

Cleopatra VII, final Ptolemaic ruler of Egypt, is portrayed as a manipulative but tragic beauty, this obscures her true legacy as a politically astute ruler

www.historyextra.com

What Did Cleopatra Look Like? Was She Really So Beautiful? | HistoryExtra

She was described as "a woman of surpassing beauty", and is often portrayed as a glamorous seductress. Find out whether Cleopatra really was a famous beauty

www.historyextra.com

 

[leomoon]

One of the more popular female names in Jersualem 2,000 years ago was Cleopatra named after the Queen of Egypt.
Herod the Great was acquaintances with both she and Antony although it was only when they died by suicide that he was rewarded by their inheritor Rome.

Herod - Encyclopedia of The Bible - Bible Gateway

www.biblegateway.com

Since Alexandra (mother in law of Herod and mother of Mariamne one of his 10 wives) believed Aristobulus’ death to be murder, she sent a report to Cleopatra, who persuaded Antony to summon Herod for an account of such actions. Herod was under obligation to go, and, realizing that Antony could and might sentence him to death, he put Mariamne under the surveillance of his uncle Joseph who was also Herod’s sister’s (Salome) husband, instructing him in strict secrecy that he should kill Mariamne if Herod were killed, so that she would not become someone else’s lover.

By eloquence and bribery Herod persuaded Antony to free him of any charges. When Herod returned, Salome charged her husband Joseph of having unlawful intercourse with Mariamne. Herod questioned Mariamne but was satisfied with her denial. But when he learned that Mariamne knew about the secret command which he had given Joseph, who told her as a proof of Herod’s love to her, Herod believed this was a confirmation of Salome’s charge and had Joseph executed without giving him an opportunity to be heard (34 b.c.). He also put Alexandra in chains and under guard for he blamed her in part for all these troubles (Jos. Antiq. xv. 3. 5-9 § 62-87; War i. 22. 4-5 § 441-444).

The fourth of the adversaries of Herod was Cleopatra. In connection with Alexandra she made trouble for Herod. By her influence over Antony she obtained an increase of territory. Although at first he would not yield to her, finally during his expedition against Armenia (c. 34 b.c.) he was induced to give her the whole of Phoenicia, the coast of Philistia south of Eleutherus River (with the exception of the free cities of Tyre and Sidon), a portion of Arabia, and the district of Jericho with its palm trees and balsams, which was the most fertile area of Herod’s kingdom (Jos. Antiq. xv. 4. 1-2 § 88-96; War i. 18. 4-5 § 360-363). Cleopatra visited the territories and Herod, though reluctantly, received her with great honor and splendor. But when she tried to entrap Herod by her devices, he would not give in (Jos. Antiq. xv. 4. 2 § 97-103).

 

[Ukpoohbear]

Very interesting. I am glad I was not born into such political turmoil and ‘game of thrones.’ It seems like even though these people were born into great privilege and wealth, that they would have to have a ruthless instinct for survival in order to not be assassinated!

Just trying to compare it to today and imagining a PTSD or grief counsellor trying to explain to all these ruthless people, the reasons for their behaviour, and trying to heal any dysfunctional family dynamic in order to heal them

Considering it is now like 2000 years later and perceptions have vastly changed, people are still surprisingly behaving with such ruthless killer instincts.

Maybe we are not much different then. Except, instead of actually assassinating people physically, it has to be done within the context of what is acceptable by today’s standards

It is a bit like the kind of effect the rules’ on this forum have on us, you can still tell of people’s seething desire to ‘win’ and attack people here, but we have to say it in a sarcastic or cover way in order to avoid breaking forum rules

Eg: the secret desire to kill hidden within a well-placed ‘’

 

[Ukpoohbear]

When Elizabeth Taylor had her tracheotomy, it was around the time of her Saturn Return, as if it was time for Saturn to transform her into an earlier incarnation from one of her previous lives,’ so she could sort out some unresolved karma…

Here she is, 6 weeks after her tracheotomy, breathlessly accepting her first ever Oscar for ‘Butterfield 8,’ —

She dramatically fainted backstage, but when on to party the night away shortly after



And, as you can see transit Pluto and NN opposing her Mars-Sun-Mercury conjunction, she was in for a rough ride the following year when she would risk her career and reputation in order to be reunited with Marc Antony, I mean, Richard Burton.

She was quoted as saying she had the worst birthday of her life the following year, as it was also the time when she was transitioning from Eddie Fisher to Richard Burton.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

With regards to Saturn triggering a new phase if past-live reincarnation, during one of my ow significant Saturn transits, I broke my wrist while I was dancing to Britney Spears in my living room (yes, really). I was a little drunk and just trying to release some stress, as the weekend before, I had had to defend myself (and won) against a sexual predator.

My wrist needed a bone graft from my hip to fix it.

After speaking to an astrology friend, who was also a skilled fighter, he said, now that my wrist was broken, I would never be able to become a skilled fighter myself.

Well ain’t that funny, that this life, I believe I am to ‘defeat’ my enemies using other means, like diplomacy or love, or seeming to trigger healing in people, instead of more chaos.

I have probably been a very skilled warrior over numerous past lives,’ and now God is saying I am now no longer needed to fight.

I’m just trying to imagine what kind of warrior I would have been in a past life, probably somebody with a fearsome right hook, since my right wrist was broken.

The skilled fighter astrology guy, said he spoke to a lady who had a past-life memory of being Joan of Arc previously. This life, she has tried to join some military career (the military equivalent of the RAF I recall), but when she tried to apply for it, she was suddenly struck die with a brain tumour, which altered the course of her life, and prevented her doing anything warrior-like this life-time.

 

[leomoon]

I have a few charts for Joan of Arc. One is her natal, the other is of a woman who was born at a train station at about 1 A.M. in France. Her mother was American and trying to get home to the USA when the baby was born prematurely there. Edgar Cayce gave the mother a reading for the child and said the child had been Joan of Arc reborn.
Seems like Uranus was triggered twice. It looks like I did not compare natal charts yet, but rather the 2nd chart is the death of Joan at the stake (when Mars was triggered by Uranus) and the rebirth of her soul into the train station baby at the same time.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

@leomoon wow, that’s really interesting. My skilled-fighter-astrology-friend was very good friend with this lady who was Joan of Arc reincarnated. I’m sure he would know of her birth details, but whether he would freely share or not, is another thing, since anybody with spiritual self-awareness understands to respect the boundaries of other people.

Also, he’s currently in a relationship, so I would like to respect his boundaries too.

Pity, because it would be interesting to compare these charts!

 

[Ukpoohbear]

‘You’re going to die an a-hole.’

Those are the words I whispered in my attacker’s ear as enveloped him like a snake.

I know I will be returning to pay for that karma.

It wasn’t that I had jumped on his back and put him in a chokehold that did it, that was self-defence.

It wasn’t even when I told my friend and her boyfriend to keep on hitting him as they punched his face, that was fear. I freely told the judge I said that and he still admonished me if serious assault, because I was a victim of sexual assault.

They charged my friend and her boyfriend for it and I lost my friend because she was angry at being charged and took it out on me I suppose?

But to be the darkness that kills someone. To go to a place of pure black, that is murder. I whispered those words in his ear because I had compete power and control over him and those words, my lips right next to his ear, got right into his head, and I know those were the words that killed him, when he took his own life a few months later.

I’m not blaming myself for all his problems. He was clearly a troubled soul. He was well-known to the police. He had mugged another friend a few months earlier, I had later learned.

And when the Police visited me in my home as part of my bail conditions, they asked me how I managed to get the better of him, when a few of the officer’s had struggled to contain him when they had arrested him for other matters.

I didn’t think. I acted. That’s how I did it. I saw a window of opportunity and I ran at it. His back was to me and I ran for momentum and jumped on his back, and for the life of me, I did not let go of his neck, and when he was on the ground, I whispered in his ear - ‘you’re going to die an a-hole.’

And that, to me, is murder. Not the chokehold. The words.

I will pay for it in my next life. I will meet him again. It was a case of fated timing. Him, struggling through life and committing petty crime, addicted to heroin, which he died from a few month’s later, I was told.

His beautiful partner and his children drove past me in her car while I was waiting for the court date.

I had tried to see a psychologist at the time but she said she couldn’t work with me intil after the court case because I was acting like ‘a rat in a box,’ I was so scared of going to prison. It hung over me for a year.

I did see her after and I told her I had put vinegar through the letter box of a guy I had been dating because I was mad at him. I felt bad and gave him a tenner to clean it up.

She seemed to think it was childish, as oppsoed to having violent tendencies towards men. And, in fact, she didn’t think there was much wrong with me. Only that I needed to work in my communication skills with lover’s and friends because I tend to fight and treat it like a war.

She asked me how I felt when I thought about confronting my family. I told her I felt like I was really small and had to put all my effort into winning, like I was up against an end-level boss in a computer game. She laughed and said that’s how I also approach relationships and she can imagine people have to decide whether they want to engage or not.

People have commented that my eyes look lost. Or like I’ve been abused. They can see the sensitivity in my eyes.

I’ve had enough. I’m not lost in darkness or blackness. I’ve simply had enough of feeling hurt and lost all the time.

I’m looking back at my life and I didn’t recognise the beauty in myself because I was so scared and traumatised from my childhood. I had my sense of safety and belonging ripped from under me from a very young age, before and after that, I was ignored and mistreated by my family. Unloved.

So I couldn’t recognise when guy’s loved me and I didn’t reciprocate their love or know how to love them back. ‘I have no feelings,’ said a guy who accused me of stringing him along for years, then I started dating his little brother.

All I saw was he was attacking me and I felt like a victim. I couldn’t read between the lines or see his pain.

I saw his brother on and off for years. His brother had been physically violent to me. He pulled my hair and grabbed me from the living room outside of my home because he came from the pub with a pizza and got jealous when he saw I had invited a guy back. I only did it to wind him up, because he had saw a girl he liked in the pub and drank my drunk out of nervousness and so I left.

So I didn’t speak to him for 5 years after that even though I declined to press charges against him. The police charged him anyway because they saw the bruises on my arm.

This year, in April, I started seeing him again. I didn’t want to date him at first, I only wanted a friend, but he wore me down and we actually started to have fun together. But I still declined a relationship.

After 6 months, he told me his ex wanted to get back together with him, I said he should go and I told him to F off for even messaging her in the first place.

I understood immediately that he was destined to be with her and he would learn a lot from her.

Part of the reason I didn’t want a relationship with him, besides not being physically attracted to him, even though we had crazy chemistry, was also because I felt like a mother to him.

The reason I was drawn to him is because I saw myself in him. He was a mess from his childhood. His mother refused to tell him who his father was and the home life was chaotic to say the least. At least before my own family disappeared, I was brought up decently and to have excellent manners. Whereas he is one step away from a street rat basically.

So I helped him over the years with finding accommodation for him and giving him a place to stay so he wasn’t homeless, or called his mum to give him a place to stay after she had chucked him out. He clung to me like a starving baby.

Until he didn’t. His Saturn return and he is now a man and he wanted to get back with his ex. She is also messed up and is a bit like a street rat herself (a pretty one) who does cheap OnlyFans photos lol. They are perfect for each other.

She needs his help and he will have to transform from a boy and into a man if he wants the relationship to work. I am not sure he has it in him because he is stuck in PTSD, where he is selfish in order to survive.

He has Sun-Venus in early Aquarius, so transit Pluto is coming for the relationship. It already triggered it to start again.

But where did that leave me? Even though I understood everything in the karmic or spiritual sense, I never understood my own feelings. I felt hurt and betrayed that he had messaged his ex.

I had also been taking Valium while I was dating him, and that was a major reason I also wanted to escape from him. I think he uses Valium to control girls because of his abandonment issues.

It made me anxious coming off it but the life style was starting to change me. The trigger was when he got into a fight in a pub from this guy. I had to pull the guy off him and my new pink shirt and suede boots got covered in blood. I took him home and dabbed the blood off him with cotton wool and water and managed to get the stains out from his top.

The blood didn’t come out my own shirt or boots though. Apparently him and his friend thought I was vain to care more about my stuff than the fact we had just broken up. I don’t think it is cost though.

His Mars is in late Capricorn so transit Pluto has just finished it, probably still effecting it though because he had changed since I last knew him. He’s more violent and chaotic basically. Good fun though.

And I did care that the relationship had ended. Even though I had declined the title. But I didn’t recognise I cared. I felt hurt and betrayed by his sneaky behaviour and it took me daring his arch enemy, a known drug dealer and violent man, for a week before I did recognise it. I fell pregnant after only 1 week of dating the drug dealer arch nemesis. I had already fallen out with the guy by the time I found out I was pregnant. I got rid of it.

And only then did I realise I cared. I don’t want to be with him but I am mourning the loss of a decade long friendship.

He messaged me. He’s tried to contact me a few times but this time he messaged me because he was in hospital. His new gf had hit him over the head with an iron. It was pre-meditated. She had asked him back to her bit after they had had a fight and she met him at the door with an iron.

Well, that’s what happens when two street rats take Valium and drink together. I could have offered him advice and told him that if the relationship haas any chance of survival, they need to get sober and be and to be the man and navigate the future like that.

But I didn’t give him advice. I sent him an angry message and told him that he deserved to be hit over the head with an iron and he’s getting a taste of his own medicine now. I told him to never message me again and I told him I felt hurt and betrayed by his behaviour to me. I made myself vulnerable.

I am still mourning the end of the friendship. I have that cutting feeling in my heart that only happens when someone you live hurts you. Its perfectly encapsulated by the 3 of swords card.

I am looking back over my life and thinking what a waste of my beauty and intelligence over the year’s, that I was too traumatised to recognise love when I saw it. I had no idea how to receive it or give it.

I looked at his big brother’s Facebook the other day. I was thinking of messaging him to apologise for not recognising he loved me. Or to say sorry for shagging his little brother. That must have stung. But he’s just had a baby and looks very happy and so it’s too late.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

I’m reflecting over my life and looking at all the mistakes I have made. I am certainly not going to waste my beauty and intelligence anymore. Soon ways left of my beauty will be gone.

Beauty is useful because it attracts people to you. It attracts love. I am scared that I will never know how to receive love. I will have to learn.

I feel so old and scared and empty.

I feel like a ***** for the pain I have caused others. I have spent my whole life as a victim and I feel trapped because I am still trapped by the trauma from my childhood still.

I have been a heartbreaker even though my heart was too broken by life to recognise it.

I am not as pretty as I was. Fuckdd my teeth up because I wants my already fine teeth perfect but then didn’t wear the retainer afterwards and it made them worse. I have a broken nose which I disguise every so often with non-surgical rhinoplasty. It was a girl who punched me with a ring on. I felt like I didn’t deserve it but maybe I did. Encroached on her territory. Pretty girls don’t like competition from other pretty girls.

God im such a vain cold hearted *****. And I like it. I can see myself more clearly now. I used to see myself as a victim and like I never did anything to cause it.

I still think I am golden. Its maybe a type of narcissism caused by a lack of love.

Ok, so I’m human. And also, two guys called me ugly. It really hurt my feelings but I also don’t give a f what people think of me, I like that about myself. I also like that I have a moral compass. I always try to do the right thing. It was the way I was brought up. I play by the rules.

So, I feel I am have almost shedded a layer of skin this year. I see myself more clearly, I’ve recognise mistakes I have made and hurt I have caused others. Instead of always feeling like the victim, I am pleased I now know I have been a ***** to people.

Im done rambling here. I feel better now.

You’ll never guess what. Something crazy just happen. My doorbell just rang and it was ny dad. I haven’t seen or spoken to him in over 10 years. My nephew told me that my stepmum died over Xmas. I burst out laughing. He told me via messenger so he didn’t know I laughed thanfukly. I don’t know if they were close or
Not.

Well, karma, Dad. You chose that selfish Virgo botch and your own happiness over me. I was a ******* child. And now she’s dead you want to fill the void. Go fuk yourself. He said over the telecom, ‘do you fancy a visitor.’ I asked who it was and he repeats, ‘do you fancy a visitor.’ I repeats again and asks who it was. He pause and said ‘your dad.’ I said no I don’t want a visitor from you and hung up the phone (doorbell is via the phone).

Wtf. I will, of course, make amends with him. But not out of the blue and on his terms. Selfish Scorpio to the core. Fuk sake.

More shadow work to do now oh the irony of the timing of he who knocks. I wrote so much I had to make it two posts.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

I wanted to add a little something about a
unrequited live in synastry. So the guy who I didn’t recognise that he loved me, I checked out synastry last week and noticed that his Venus was squaring my Neptune. I literally did not see that he loved me. He also never told me and so there were mistakes on both sides but, after looking back and reading through old messages between us, I can see he was in a lot of pain because he had a lot of deep feelings for me and I never committed to him. From my side, I was quite happy with it being on-and-off because I’m not really the commital type. He was a faithful and steadfast Taurus bless him. He’s happy now so that’s ok.

I have also been on the other end of an unrequited love and my Neptune was also square this guy’s Venus. I wouldn’t have cared so much but he messages me every few months because he is so depeately co-dependent he’s always on the fishing for more attention form girls, so he’ll message me. I though we light have forged a friendship but when I told him I was pregnant with mr drug dealer, who he also hates and has ‘had a few run-ins with him’ himself, he told h a mutual friend behind my back that the baby would be ugly. He obviously thinks I am ugly and I don’t care. He is good looking, so his standards are probably quite high, he’s been out with proper 10’s, but still, it hurt my feelings to be told someone thinks I am ugly. It especially stung because I had just found out I was pregnant honestly, I’ve been punched a lot this year.

If that wasn’t bad enough, this girl who I met through an old job, decided to attack me when I was in hospital. Ah yes, I ended up in hospital even though I tried to do the abortion at home. I was coming off my anti-depressant medication (I took it for anxiety, and I was already dehydrated and so I had heart palpitations, to the point the doctor in A&E was worried about it, and I needed more pain medication that the stupid cocodomal I had been prescribed. An abortion is a messy, traumatic, bloody affair. I stood up from the bed and blood poured out of me. A lovely nurse heleod me out and I made sure to properly thank her. I said sorry for the mess I caused and she was so professional aboit itz I said, this is the reality of an abortion, isn’t it, as she cleaned up the blood all over the room and the baby on the floor.

So my ‘friend’ decided to plan an attack on me the day I was having an abortion and she messaged me when I was full of morphine. She didn’t like how I had told her the day before that most conversations are revolved around her and it can be exhausting, I said it nicely to try and mend the friendship as we did actually get on quite well, despite me knowing she was spiritually way lower than me, ie selfish af. She obviously felt hurt by hearing me say that and decided to tell me hurtful things she had heard a mutual friend say about me. I was so full of morphine I said thank you and smiled at the situation lol. When the morphine wore off, I told her it was the end of the friendship and she needs to work on her self-esteem if she is that cruel over nothing.

So, yeah, a tough year.

I also want to share the message I sent the guy when I told him our friendship was over. It was a moment of taking my power back and I love it.

 

[Moondancing]

Write about your future now, the future you are creating, romance your future.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

Write about your future now, the future you are creating, romance your future.

That would fall under the Tantra thread or even 5D because it is about manifesting what you want, like Abraham Hicks.

I like my Doom and Gloom thread, though. For some reason I can be more myself.

I’ll think about making the other threads more conversational and that will make them busier.

I could talk about ways I have healed myself in the Tantra thread. Actually, this thread also shows how healing is done in real-time. It’s life. It’s real.

Shadow and darkness is a huge part of healing. Recognising the darkness in myself is a great feeling!

Maybe you don’t like seeing me in a negative space and that’s nice it’s real though. This thread is like a step-by-step guide on how to survive a Pluto transit

 

[Ukpoohbear]

Write about your future now, the future you are creating, romance your future.

I do think about the future. It never meets up to my expectations well, 2024, I am going to meet my soul mate. I will have the love I have always dreamt off, but it won’t last. Nothing about me lasts forever. I’m not the marriage type even though I would benefit from stability. It’s just not my nature though.

In august 2024, I am going to start my teacher training course.

Oh, I think it would be helpful to know that I actually benefit from taking time out to reflect on the past. I do not lack in motivation or plans for the future, or hope. I am full of it. If anything, I need more negativity and the security it provides, so I benefit from this type of thread, whereas maybe some other people need to do this less, is you see what I mean.

I do have a tendency to feel sorry for myself, but I honestly and truly need to take time to reflect and think deeply, because it’s not on my nature to really dig deep and then I miss out on stuff, like hurt I have caused others.

You are a Scorpio so maybe you do this already and would benefit from a future thread yourself.

 

[Moondancing]

Don't mean to change your thread. Just seemed like the thing to say when silence is really best.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

Don't mean to change your thread. Just seemed like the thing to say when silence is really best.

Aww you didn’t offend me at all. Don’t ever be silent. I like your friendship.

Tbh, I think the way I use this forum has become a bit inappropriate because my hobby is basically writing blogs about my feelings lol. Sometimes it feels a bit inappropriate. Maybe it would be better to move my threads to a blog website. The one you suggested does sound good.

 

[Ukpoohbear]

Tbh, I’ve been thinking of leaving ever since I had a mad lesbian on heat try to get me to leave this forum. I certainly wasn’t going to leave by being bullied out, but it did make me start to think that this forum doesn’t fit for me anymore. I’ve been thinking about leaving for a while and it is still ruminating. I haven’t received an answer yet.

 

[Moondancing]

Aww you didn’t offend me at all. Don’t ever be silent. I like your friendship.

Tbh, I think the way I use this forum has become a bit inappropriate because my hobby is basically writing blogs about my feelings lol. Sometimes it feels a bit inappropriate. Maybe it would be better to move my threads to a blog website. The one you suggested does sound good.

It's difficult to read people's intentions in this forum, especially for me. I did take your response to me as defensive and felt like I needed to back off. When you write such a powerful piece it's difficult, for me anyway, to just ignore. Especially when there is much I recognize and have dealt with in my life. Coming across with a simplistic reply doesn't feel right either. You have to decide what it is you want to achieve with your writing. Dave would have some nice little response to you that never came across as threatening. Sure miss his presence, no?

 

[Moondancing]

Tbh, I’ve been thinking of leaving ever since I had a mad lesbian on heat try to get me to leave this forum. I certainly wasn’t going to leave by being bullied out, but it did make me start to think that this forum doesn’t fit for me anymore. I’ve been thinking about leaving for a while and it is still ruminating. I haven’t received an answer yet.

You have participated in astrology threads that many have enjoyed and learned how astrology works. This has been your community for a long while and you bring a very unique perspective that would be missed.