wideawake42
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Attached is my chart with current transits. I also just made an introductory post in the Introduce Yourself forum, explaining that this is the reason I've sought this forum out.
Basically, my Saturn return is hitting and it is doing a number on me psychologically. I always feel Saturn cycles rather strongly but I usually ride them out smoothly thanks to a number of positive natal contacts...I can't understand why this one is taking such a toll. Normally, I would take it that a Saturn Return hitting you with such force means you've not been "doing your Saturn"...but I don't know what else I could be doing!
I'm in school for a PhD (3rd house) in Philosophy (Sag) and I'm also about to have my first child (Saturn is close enough to 4th house that I interpret it as having some impact on 4). Seems to me like I'm working pretty hard on that Saturn stuff, but it's just been relentless. Specifically, for the past few weeks, I've suddenly been feeling completely empty, meaningless, and insecure, as if I were the most boring person in the world...I find all of my old goals and ambitions stale, as if I'd grown out of them. (Which sounds like classic Saturn woe to me!) I can't remember the last time something inspired me. My entire life, I've been a writer and a poet, and it seems like that has faded out over the last year, and there's been no creativity from me whatsoever, and the worst part is that I've hardly even been distressed by that. I can't tell if that's because Saturn is pruning away an artistic side that wasn't going anywhere, or if it's because I wasn't working hard enough at it. I'm completely lost.
ANY input is appreciated. I've always been a little nervous about having Saturn conjunct nadir, and don't know what to make of the fact that it opposes Chiron. I've read in places that I'm always going to be fundamentally insecure because of Saturn conjunct nadir, but that seems a little doom-and-gloom to me.
Also, please feel free to make other observations if you can't help with the Saturn stuff. I'm always happy to learn from others.
Basically, my Saturn return is hitting and it is doing a number on me psychologically. I always feel Saturn cycles rather strongly but I usually ride them out smoothly thanks to a number of positive natal contacts...I can't understand why this one is taking such a toll. Normally, I would take it that a Saturn Return hitting you with such force means you've not been "doing your Saturn"...but I don't know what else I could be doing!
I'm in school for a PhD (3rd house) in Philosophy (Sag) and I'm also about to have my first child (Saturn is close enough to 4th house that I interpret it as having some impact on 4). Seems to me like I'm working pretty hard on that Saturn stuff, but it's just been relentless. Specifically, for the past few weeks, I've suddenly been feeling completely empty, meaningless, and insecure, as if I were the most boring person in the world...I find all of my old goals and ambitions stale, as if I'd grown out of them. (Which sounds like classic Saturn woe to me!) I can't remember the last time something inspired me. My entire life, I've been a writer and a poet, and it seems like that has faded out over the last year, and there's been no creativity from me whatsoever, and the worst part is that I've hardly even been distressed by that. I can't tell if that's because Saturn is pruning away an artistic side that wasn't going anywhere, or if it's because I wasn't working hard enough at it. I'm completely lost.
ANY input is appreciated. I've always been a little nervous about having Saturn conjunct nadir, and don't know what to make of the fact that it opposes Chiron. I've read in places that I'm always going to be fundamentally insecure because of Saturn conjunct nadir, but that seems a little doom-and-gloom to me.
Also, please feel free to make other observations if you can't help with the Saturn stuff. I'm always happy to learn from others.