cancerrisingsagitarius
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- Feb 9, 2012
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Hello, I´m new on this forum. The reason for my joining is, I´m in an extremely confusing period of my life, undoubtedly caused by this transit I started to feel the effects of about a year ago. In my natal chart, I have the sun opposite saturn and conjunct neptune.
The things I´ve been experiencing so far:
I spent a very stressful vacation with my father and my children. I remembered the fear I felt for him (he tends to have a bad temper) as a child, and understood how this affected my self esteem. It was as if I could see this experience reflected in my own children. It made me see my father with different eyes. But I still notice there´s an unconscious part in me trying very hard to gain his approval.
A formerly good friend offered me a job with him. It seemed like a too good to be true scenario, which it was. The conditions were different from what he told me in the beginning, and he soon became almost abusive - acting like a bully with me, changing decisions at the last moment, etc. Now I´m going through the motions of doing the work (we don´t see each other in person much, mostly communicate through email), but inwardly I feel I´ve gotten him off my list of friends, so to say.
I went to a hypnotherapist in the hope of getting over my divorce (which was in 2009) and had several regressions to past lives, something that took me completely by surprise because I had never thought much about reincarnation. This was shocking, to say the least.
My son started to develop fears about my safety. He´d have trouble going to school, becoming really nervous, crying out of fear that I´d have an accident or something like that. I´m still not sure how to help him get over his fears, his dad is involved in looking for a solution, so far therapies have only calmed him down a little.
I started a confusing long distance relationship with my former best friend, who had always made me understand he was in love with me. The thing is, the connection and attraction are there (and very strong), but after about 7 months of only communicating through email, phone, chat, webcam, we have only kissed once (the only time we´ve seen each other in person). This is making me very insecure and impatient at times (when I imagine he´s with someone else), other times dreamy and hopeful that this will blossom into a real relationship (when he tells me he wants to go slow with me).
I´m very sleepy and often lethargic, forget things. Creativity is low because I can´t seem to nail things down, so to speak, they somehow elude me.
So anyway, if someone wants to share his/her experience with this transit, or has some suggestion as how to deal with it, I´d appreciate it.
For now I´m just trying not to expect things will work out as I think they should, but sometimes I´m afraid of some mayor deception and disappointments and I´m not sure how to avoid that.
The things I´ve been experiencing so far:
I spent a very stressful vacation with my father and my children. I remembered the fear I felt for him (he tends to have a bad temper) as a child, and understood how this affected my self esteem. It was as if I could see this experience reflected in my own children. It made me see my father with different eyes. But I still notice there´s an unconscious part in me trying very hard to gain his approval.
A formerly good friend offered me a job with him. It seemed like a too good to be true scenario, which it was. The conditions were different from what he told me in the beginning, and he soon became almost abusive - acting like a bully with me, changing decisions at the last moment, etc. Now I´m going through the motions of doing the work (we don´t see each other in person much, mostly communicate through email), but inwardly I feel I´ve gotten him off my list of friends, so to say.
I went to a hypnotherapist in the hope of getting over my divorce (which was in 2009) and had several regressions to past lives, something that took me completely by surprise because I had never thought much about reincarnation. This was shocking, to say the least.
My son started to develop fears about my safety. He´d have trouble going to school, becoming really nervous, crying out of fear that I´d have an accident or something like that. I´m still not sure how to help him get over his fears, his dad is involved in looking for a solution, so far therapies have only calmed him down a little.
I started a confusing long distance relationship with my former best friend, who had always made me understand he was in love with me. The thing is, the connection and attraction are there (and very strong), but after about 7 months of only communicating through email, phone, chat, webcam, we have only kissed once (the only time we´ve seen each other in person). This is making me very insecure and impatient at times (when I imagine he´s with someone else), other times dreamy and hopeful that this will blossom into a real relationship (when he tells me he wants to go slow with me).
I´m very sleepy and often lethargic, forget things. Creativity is low because I can´t seem to nail things down, so to speak, they somehow elude me.
So anyway, if someone wants to share his/her experience with this transit, or has some suggestion as how to deal with it, I´d appreciate it.
For now I´m just trying not to expect things will work out as I think they should, but sometimes I´m afraid of some mayor deception and disappointments and I´m not sure how to avoid that.
