I’m burned out and my happiness comes from mastery and things that require meticulous practice, attention to detail, research and analysis.

[or1000]

Hello all,
I want to post my chart here and have kind people express your thoughts on your idea of how I can free myself from what feels like constant go, go, go. When I am not going, in mind or in pursuit of mastery, I am not happy. To me, things I enjoy, are things I want to master, though without really a timeframe. Although yes, 1 of them does seem like I should be better by now - so, my interests are not passive. Im a student of psychology and in my spare time I have interest in the arts, spirituality, and practice music. All means of understanding myself and being able to express human nature. Does my chart point to other things that I may enjoy? I have an idea where this is coming from; I want to know your thoughts on possible aspects that could point to escape for me. You guys may mention something to do with water, painting; I cannot do anything for fun, it is always to be the best I can, which loops into this burning out — what advice do you guys have if not aspects of release?

 

[Outlook]

a very busy, demanding, stressful but creative chart.

You have a grand cross, a t square and a kite with firther odd squares that add more stress.

The grand cross composed of mercury saturn moon uranus neptune is cemented in fixed signs and creates mental and emotional heaviness and negativity that is both stress inducing in its need to break free and tendency to depression from disapointment. Yet the mercury is connected to the kite which drains the above…. allowing for perpetual renewal.

Its like a perpetual engine…. constant churning, fed by fuel of new energy supply. Your poor body and mind are driven to exhaustion.

with gemini venus and mars there is the love of mental exoporation of any intellectual matterial. There is no limit to what you can and will try. With the pluto deepening the otherwise surface level geminian tendency, you are likely to go a few levels deeper accumulating the knowledge.

But none of it may be for more than learning. None of it may be for use. Its all for the need to run and outrun the engine to keep the thing turning and running…to keep bursting through…. to outrun it all…. to avoid stagnation …to renew itself and keep going…for some fear of an end.

its quite beautiful how it all hangs and works together. a dedication to the pursuit of knowledge. I am sure quite stressful also!

Make sure you provide good source of vit b, magnesium and c so your nerves and system have support . not to forget nutritious based real food as a basis…or good multivitamins although they arent a substitute of well balanced nutrition its better than nothing. Otherwise you wont only habe burn out you will have mental breakdown. once that gets its grip, its difficult to get the ‘engine’ to heal and run properly and you could face mental health problems…all for lack of nutrition!

Set yourself up as the living moving library…font of knowledge. it might give you the needed input to avail yourself for use to investigate anything to provide information.

Otherwise…. a perpetual student or a researcher, of all subjects might suit.

 

[ArbitraryMeaning]

I would read into the following configurations:

Venus Gemini 9th quincunx Moon/Chiron Scorpio 2nd (opposed by Pluto in Sagittarius 3rd ruler of Moon/Chiron in Scorpio)

Venus trine and Moon/Chiron square Uranus Aquarius 5th

Also: north node in Virgo 11th ruled by Mercury Leo 10th, which is part of your grand fixed cross which includes that Moon/Chiron-Uranus square

 

[waybread]

Mars square Jupiter is a classic aspect for biting off more than you can chew. Mars provides the energy. Jupiter says, "If a little is good, a lot is better." Then Mercury square Saturn leads to thoughts of inadequacy..

Maybe schedule-in times that force you to renew and refresh: meditation, a power nap, or contemplating beautiful scenery.

Sometimes people get addicted to the adrenalin release of constantly feeling under pressure.

 

[or1000]

I would read into the following configurations:

Venus Gemini 9th quincunx Moon/Chiron Scorpio 2nd (opposed by Pluto in Sagittarius 3rd ruler of Moon/Chiron in Scorpio)

Venus trine and Moon/Chiron square Uranus Aquarius 5th

Also: north node in Virgo 11th ruled by Mercury Leo 10th, which is part of your grand fixed cross which includes that Moon/Chiron-Uranus square

Thank you. Why is it your mention Venus aspects - is because these point to enjoyment, or do you have another reason?

 

[or1000]

a very busy, demanding, stressful but creative chart.

You have a grand cross, a t square and a kite with firther odd squares that add more stress.

The grand cross composed of mercury saturn moon uranus neptune is cemented in fixed signs and creates mental and emotional heaviness and negativity that is both stress inducing in its need to break free and tendency to depression from disapointment. Yet the mercury is connected to the kite which drains the above…. allowing for perpetual renewal.

Its like a perpetual engine…. constant churning, fed by fuel of new energy supply. Your poor body and mind are driven to exhaustion.

with gemini venus and mars there is the love of mental exoporation of any intellectual matterial. There is no limit to what you can and will try. With the pluto deepening the otherwise surface level geminian tendency, you are likely to go a few levels deeper accumulating the knowledge.

But none of it may be for more than learning. None of it may be for use. Its all for the need to run and outrun the engine to keep the thing turning and running…to keep bursting through…. to outrun it all…. to avoid stagnation …to renew itself and keep going…for some fear of an end.

its quite beautiful how it all hangs and works together. a dedication to the pursuit of knowledge. I am sure quite stressful also!

Make sure you provide good source of vit b, magnesium and c so your nerves and system have support . not to forget nutritious based real food as a basis…or good multivitamins although they arent a substitute of well balanced nutrition its better than nothing. Otherwise you wont only habe burn out you will have mental breakdown. once that gets its grip, its difficult to get the ‘engine’ to heal and run properly and you could face mental health problems…all for lack of nutrition!

Set yourself up as the living moving library…font of knowledge. it might give you the needed input to avail yourself for use to investigate anything to provide information.

Otherwise…. a perpetual student or a researcher, of all subjects might suit.

Feeling stuck in a box, it maybe to do with the configurations and the oppositions, would you agree? I have never truly looked into methods of release with these configurations, as I never quite understood them fully.

The experience is being stuck in this perpetual box in my mind and it is the ONLY way I know how to exist, so when I am opening my mind and trying to form habits pertaining to new ways to try and release from this old one, the new is being filtered through this fixed model.

 

[or1000]

Mars square Jupiter is a classic aspect for biting off more than you can chew. Mars provides the energy. Jupiter says, "If a little is good, a lot is better." Then Mercury square Saturn leads to thoughts of inadequacy..

Maybe schedule-in times that force you to renew and refresh: meditation, a power nap, or contemplating beautiful scenery.

Sometimes people get addicted to the adrenalin release of constantly feeling under pressure.

Mars square Jupiter is a classic aspect for biting off more than you can chew. Mars provides the energy. Jupiter says, "If a little is good, a lot is better." Then Mercury square Saturn leads to thoughts of inadequacy..

Maybe schedule-in times that force you to renew and refresh: meditation, a power nap, or contemplating beautiful scenery.

Sometimes people get addicted to the adrenalin release of constantly feeling under pressure.

I do appreciate contemplating scenery, definitely something I do enjoy

 

[Ecliptique]

Hello or1000,

it seems that you always want to achieve something that you tend to hope for but it depends on your ability to decide towards something that is difficult to achieve. There is a need to be constant towards what interests you. You do not want to make a mistake in your goals. Everything you want to do is related to your aspirations and you need to deduce the goals to pursue conditioning the fact of finding new solutions in relation to what pleases you. You absolutely want to express yourself freely in what interests you, which naturally leads you to the goal to pursue, wanting to be the best possible. By fully understanding what interests you, you need to devote yourself to something that is difficult to access leading you to listen to what pleases you. Etc. Is there something that is difficult to achieve for you and wanting to make it an interest?

Ecliptique.