I posted an horary yesterday, in hopes of finding a long term partner. I also acknowledged and expressed some unpleasant attributes, abusive history from childhood up until now. I feel I keep getting mistreated and I have been lonely, I feel at times, because I have standards like being treated like a human and having my feelings taken into consideration. I would like reciprocity in many areas but while I am working on myself, I need someone to be patient with me as I would extend the same grace to him. I also address my need to be respected and do not mind being vocal about it. After suppressing my basic needs after many years of burying issues, as life happens raising a family, I will speak up for myself. .As far as my childhood they teased me relentlessly up until I left as a teenager. I love my parents and brother so much I did not speak up much as I have a very small childhood family and did not want the risk of losing my brother who is abusive and very condescending to me, but they best guy in town to strangers he doesn't know.
My natal chart I believe shows Venus in Pisces and to be honest I have become even more defensive through the years due to being taken advantage of, and people thinking I am weak because I am a quiet bull. So many things have happened concerning abuse and bullying to me and I bother no one unless they bother me first. Even then it may take a while for me to explode on them. Leo moon 12th house my mother breaks my heart up until this day. My children are my life and my reason for living. but now I feel it is time for me. I will be graduating from college in 2 weeks and moving on to my Masters. I am following my dreams that I have had not thinking I would be able to pursue them. I know for a fact God placed me in this position to complete my educational goals.
That said, I would like to have some meaningful companionship, especially after being in a loveless/friendly/pal marriage for many years. My husband would not let me take care of him at all which hurt me very badly while he gaslighted me. I think because I am a naturally happy person and he may have been jealous.
Anyway, looking at the chart, I am not the best on progressions. But I see my progressed Gemini will be going to Cancer sun, moving to 11thH?
I had been watching tChiron for a while, knowing it was going to be conjunct my natal Chiron in May. So I believe it is separating now. I am hopeful someone to take a closer look at my progressions (and possibly transits?), as it was discussed in the previous horary thread so I can possibly have more details as it would be very helpful. Thank you so much.
My natal chart I believe shows Venus in Pisces and to be honest I have become even more defensive through the years due to being taken advantage of, and people thinking I am weak because I am a quiet bull. So many things have happened concerning abuse and bullying to me and I bother no one unless they bother me first. Even then it may take a while for me to explode on them. Leo moon 12th house my mother breaks my heart up until this day. My children are my life and my reason for living. but now I feel it is time for me. I will be graduating from college in 2 weeks and moving on to my Masters. I am following my dreams that I have had not thinking I would be able to pursue them. I know for a fact God placed me in this position to complete my educational goals.
That said, I would like to have some meaningful companionship, especially after being in a loveless/friendly/pal marriage for many years. My husband would not let me take care of him at all which hurt me very badly while he gaslighted me. I think because I am a naturally happy person and he may have been jealous.
Anyway, looking at the chart, I am not the best on progressions. But I see my progressed Gemini will be going to Cancer sun, moving to 11thH?
I had been watching tChiron for a while, knowing it was going to be conjunct my natal Chiron in May. So I believe it is separating now. I am hopeful someone to take a closer look at my progressions (and possibly transits?), as it was discussed in the previous horary thread so I can possibly have more details as it would be very helpful. Thank you so much.
