Hello, so I finally finished my 8 month long film project on 3.09.24. It was very intense, there were many ups and downs. All of my doubts that I wrote in previous threads were true about my Scorpio supervisor. Even though later I realised she was mentally sick- she was taking medicines mixed with alcohol and had a depression, I do not want to work with her in a future. She caused me many inner turmoils so big that I got many grey hair and very high cortisol in my blood tests. All in all I liked to work with Aries Set designer and his team because they had better communication and organisation compared to Scorpio set decorator. There was also set designer assistant who was guided by him better and more clearly than me by set decorator.
But anyway its finished. Unforturnately two or one week ago we had a lunch with Aries and Scorpio and Scorpio behaved weirdly and badly towards me. She was very surprised when I answered her question on what I wanna do in the future after the project. I told her that I changed my profession and I don´t wanna work in architecture for now, I wanna work in set design or set decoration in a future. She was very surprised and she said ( in front of Aries boss) that I didn´t do either of both things here and I was just assistant and she was curious how I will get new jobs. I told her that its my business and I will work on this. But later on when I exit the room I started crying and later that day I told Aries boss that if he had some next projects I would be interested to join his team. He was smiling and thanked me because he didn´t know I was interested.
I mentioned this to him on a farewell party 3.09 this week when we were saying goodbye to each other but he seemed surprised and kind of awkward but he told me that he remembers what I told him before.
Anyway, now I have still my phd on my path but I look for jobs. I really wish I would succeed in film industry but im new here I have no connections so I don´t know how people search for jobs. Many of people from this last projects have already looked for new projects and are already in new teams but they have more experience. That is why I told Aries boss about it because I know I need to be bold to ask this things.
Yesterday we met each other again because I forgot to give him some of his building equipment. I told him I was sorry I forgot but we met for 10 min in a city. He was nice but instead of giving me a hug ( as he did before all the time) he gave me his hand and was very professional, was curious when I would move to my city, I told him I m staying in Warsaw , he was surprised and asked me for how long, I told him I have my business to do here and I do my portfolio here. Then car appeared and I didn´t understand what he said and we both left.
I don´t wanna be desperate but for me its like I can be desperate for jobs ( not for personal business) and I can be like this when it comes to jobs, freelance and etc. I do not know and I am not sure if he will offer me some next job so im trying to move forward somehow with my life.
But generally I am sad because when I asked other assistants and even him and Scorpio they told me that they began film journey sticking to each other in next projects. Scorpio told me that Aries boss was only working with one guy and he usually works with the same people.
Scorpio told me that if I wanna do sth in the film industry I may ask other people ( she didn´t indicate whom) or our other female friend who is an amaterur director. She was surprised that I didn´t wanna pursue academic career only. She was indicating this when having a lunch with Aries boss. No idea why. Probably because she wanted to present him me as a person who was not interested in this filmic jobs. So that is why I reached out to him later after lunch.
I wonder why Scorpio didn´t say sth like " talk to Aries boss for more information " why didn´t she do it. Probably because she doesn´t wanna work with me in the future as well.
that is why I do my things, I do my portfolio, I may try to ask other people about some job opportunities. Maybe I am thinking too quickly and actually some of them MAY reach out to me but I want to push things too quickly now because im on adrenaline still.
thank you for your answers
PS. Aries boss stopped flirting or unexpectedly touching me, bumping on me in July before our last long trip to other city for filming. When he stopped I started to open up more, and talk to him more. When he was doing those things before I was feeling uncomfortable and I blocked myself because I didn't want to cross some weird line when I was JUST an ASSISTANT on my first film project. I improved communication with him and he started to talk to me normally since July 2024 not giving me any flirty signs. I was intimidated before because he knows he is handsome but flirts with many new women in a team. I didn't want to be ' the young desperate woman who wanna sleep with her boss to get new jobs'. Maybe he just ignored me since July but all in all I felt better and not blocked. I prefer now to be on friendly terms because I do not know the environment and I do not wanna be dependent only on him ( if he would give me some weird flirty signs).
Or maybe he will not reach out to me with some next job because I didn't reciprocate his flirts and touches and he just stopped and we both friend zoned each other?
But anyway its finished. Unforturnately two or one week ago we had a lunch with Aries and Scorpio and Scorpio behaved weirdly and badly towards me. She was very surprised when I answered her question on what I wanna do in the future after the project. I told her that I changed my profession and I don´t wanna work in architecture for now, I wanna work in set design or set decoration in a future. She was very surprised and she said ( in front of Aries boss) that I didn´t do either of both things here and I was just assistant and she was curious how I will get new jobs. I told her that its my business and I will work on this. But later on when I exit the room I started crying and later that day I told Aries boss that if he had some next projects I would be interested to join his team. He was smiling and thanked me because he didn´t know I was interested.
I mentioned this to him on a farewell party 3.09 this week when we were saying goodbye to each other but he seemed surprised and kind of awkward but he told me that he remembers what I told him before.
Anyway, now I have still my phd on my path but I look for jobs. I really wish I would succeed in film industry but im new here I have no connections so I don´t know how people search for jobs. Many of people from this last projects have already looked for new projects and are already in new teams but they have more experience. That is why I told Aries boss about it because I know I need to be bold to ask this things.
Yesterday we met each other again because I forgot to give him some of his building equipment. I told him I was sorry I forgot but we met for 10 min in a city. He was nice but instead of giving me a hug ( as he did before all the time) he gave me his hand and was very professional, was curious when I would move to my city, I told him I m staying in Warsaw , he was surprised and asked me for how long, I told him I have my business to do here and I do my portfolio here. Then car appeared and I didn´t understand what he said and we both left.
I don´t wanna be desperate but for me its like I can be desperate for jobs ( not for personal business) and I can be like this when it comes to jobs, freelance and etc. I do not know and I am not sure if he will offer me some next job so im trying to move forward somehow with my life.
But generally I am sad because when I asked other assistants and even him and Scorpio they told me that they began film journey sticking to each other in next projects. Scorpio told me that Aries boss was only working with one guy and he usually works with the same people.
Scorpio told me that if I wanna do sth in the film industry I may ask other people ( she didn´t indicate whom) or our other female friend who is an amaterur director. She was surprised that I didn´t wanna pursue academic career only. She was indicating this when having a lunch with Aries boss. No idea why. Probably because she wanted to present him me as a person who was not interested in this filmic jobs. So that is why I reached out to him later after lunch.
I wonder why Scorpio didn´t say sth like " talk to Aries boss for more information " why didn´t she do it. Probably because she doesn´t wanna work with me in the future as well.
that is why I do my things, I do my portfolio, I may try to ask other people about some job opportunities. Maybe I am thinking too quickly and actually some of them MAY reach out to me but I want to push things too quickly now because im on adrenaline still.
thank you for your answers
PS. Aries boss stopped flirting or unexpectedly touching me, bumping on me in July before our last long trip to other city for filming. When he stopped I started to open up more, and talk to him more. When he was doing those things before I was feeling uncomfortable and I blocked myself because I didn't want to cross some weird line when I was JUST an ASSISTANT on my first film project. I improved communication with him and he started to talk to me normally since July 2024 not giving me any flirty signs. I was intimidated before because he knows he is handsome but flirts with many new women in a team. I didn't want to be ' the young desperate woman who wanna sleep with her boss to get new jobs'. Maybe he just ignored me since July but all in all I felt better and not blocked. I prefer now to be on friendly terms because I do not know the environment and I do not wanna be dependent only on him ( if he would give me some weird flirty signs).
Or maybe he will not reach out to me with some next job because I didn't reciprocate his flirts and touches and he just stopped and we both friend zoned each other?
